You.

So I got myself thinking about you. About our friendship. It's funny how we turned out didn't we?

I know that I'm on the other side of the world from you right now, so far from you. You so far from me. We do talk sometimes, you over there watching out for me still, and me here... uhm, well... huh. What do I do here? Do I watch out for you?

We did have some tough times. They were horrible weren't they? Us screaming at each other, fighting over stupid little things, turning our backs, letting our pride and status get the better of us. When one was down, we hardly picked each other up but instead thought 'They deserved it.'

But we're getting better. No one's perfect.

I don't really say this, but I do get jealous of you. I think that you're very cool. You kind of have that persona where people are just naturally attracted to you, you look great, all the time. And then you have these lucky awesome moments too. I get jealous of that. You're funny. You got great friends. I thought you had it all.

I probably tried at some point in my life- wait, hold that, I DID try to be like you. Who knew you were trying to be like me? There's me just sitting in my uncool corner of shyness. And you, so outgoing and happy. Living life on edge.

Here I sit, leaning on my pillows on the corner of the bed, eating grapes. Yumm.

I'm thinking about life, love, and other things. Still trying to find myself. But I gotta say, I'm thankful for you. We don't have the best friendship, there's those super funny moments and those weird moments too. Where we care, where we get mad, jealous.

I don't know if you are reading this, probably not. And if you are I doubt that you know this is about you. But to me, I think you are the most wonderful friend I have ever had.

You're not perfect. You may not be the best at sharing secrets, school, sports, and all that stuff. But it all doesn't really matter. Because at the end of the day, we're friends. I may be the complete opposite of you. Haha. But we're still friends. We trust each other.

I truly value you. Your friendship is special and I have never met anyone like you. You're weird. I like that. :)

Anyway, I guess I just wanted to let you know this stuff. Thanks. For our friendship. And all of the stuff you did for me. And still are doing for me.

Oh, and another thing. (Well maybe more)

A lot of people are extremely selfish, always thinking about themselves. Yeah, I'm one of those people. Sometimes. Haha, I don't try to be.

But you aren't. You always want to make people happy. Not because you care what they think in that way, but you care about them. You care.

That's what I like about you.

I know you've been through plenty of things. I've been through maybe the same.
It worked out amazingly at the beginning. You had it your way, but then it fell apart. During those times, you know who your true friends are.

I guess I can call myself one of those people since I stuck by you.

What can I say? You're like peanut butter. Sticky, sometimes gross, delicious, great with food-- well some foods, mixes well with Jelly, squishy, brown, made out of peanuts.. and some other butter stuff, sugary, sweet, etc. I could go on and on about peanut butter... oh yeah, what was my point again? LOL :P

You're like peanut butter. Sticky. I'm stuck with you hun. I ain't leavin' this sandwich.

So when you feel like your whole world is fallin' apart and you just wanna die or something like that. I'm here for you!!

I'm not Superman. haha, sorry I don't have black shiny hair, great muscles or abs like him-- yeah, yeah, I'm sure you prefer him, but whatever.. LOL (I probs would too, jk).

But through thick and thin, skinny and fat, ugly and beautiful, normal or weird, smiles or frowns, full teeth or toothless, contacts or glasses, lipstick or mascara... uhm, what was I saying again?

RIGHT.

When the sun shines, we'll shine together. Told you I'll be here forever said I'll always be a friend, took an oath I'm a stick it out till the end.

Not that it's raining more than ever know that we'll still have each other. You can stand under my umbrella. You can stand under my umbrella. (Ella ella eh eh eh)

Under my umbrella. (Ella ella eh eh eh) Under my umbrealla. Ella eh eh eh----

Wait, ahha isn't this a song?

You get my point don't you?

Haha even in silly moments like this.

Still, I hope that we'll still be friends in the future. If we're not, that's fine too.

I'd still like to hear about your stories and fun moments.

Peace.