Unfortunate

A large chunk of regret is protruding deep inside my mind.

I suppose I know I should have acted with more discernment and should not have let my... condition act for me. But what is done is done and I am not able to take it back even though I wish I could.

Today one sentence that was said has spoken to me the most and had possibly a major impact on my thinking. Gah, I've done it again, I've realized. How could that be possible?

I thought I had learned, but in reality I have not yet aquired the knowledge that I must obtain in order to actually apply it into movement.

It must be because I am still getting used to it. Oh rebuke that statement. I can never get used to things despite the conditions. I should know by now that I shouldn't and should just look to the future because I know that what is right now is not forever.

So should I just simply forget about it?

Well, obviously the answer is: No, you should not forget about this mistake or Yes, just move on and try to make things better.

But unfortunately, making things better requires a longer amount of time. And again, unfortunately, I do not have quite a lengthy amount of time. *Le sigh*

Try to make the best of it I guess. I screwed up once, I survived. I am screwing up again, and well, we'll see what goes on from here.