Infinite sadness.

To be honest, I'm completely disraught. I can't even fathom the complete sadness I am feeling.

As I see the fortunate ones pass by me with their smiling faces a little bit of me dies inside.

Though that's not why I'm completely sad.

Have you ever heard 2 cymbals clash against one other? It's really really loud.

Well I feel that way right now.
Like cymbals yelling in my ears constantly non-stop.

Wears the triangle here? The soft sweet cling.
I'd rather do without the clang thank you very much.


I'm merely just an instrument player waiting and hoping for the maestro to change the tune. Please. I'm begging you.

Instead, the cymbal player decided to clash it right next to my ear. While the gong of the big drum causes all my notes to topple down causing me great distress.

All I wanted was to sit on that chair.
That first chair.

Why aren't I accepted?

Just to have my hopes and dreams crushed oh so suddenly.

My fellow violinist, the soprano, didn't even bother to cover for me. But instead play their own solo piece, being the star of the show.

I'm so tired. And sad.

Will this day get any worse?