Perspective.

This is supposed to be easy.

But it's not. ISH.

Usually, I'd love these kinds of assignments, you know the creative ones, where we have projects where we have to create and draw and use our imaginations, etc.

The kind where I would love to work hours perfecting, even though I would get most of it done at school.

This semester's subjects are SO EASY. I wouldn't have much homework at all if I was at school.

But no.. I am not at school, I am somewhere else in the world, so I have to do this online.

It takes most of my hours and time and adds more stress and less fun to learning.

As I have to take these exams when i get back, so me, being the perfectionist I am, consumes about 6 hours or so working on one thing.

Whilst, if I was at school, I would work only 30mins on it, knowing what to do.

This is extremely challenging for me, though I'd hate to admit it since everybody thinks I have it so easy since I'm supposed to be the smart one.

I chuckle and shrug it off sometimes, but meh.

It really does get to me. Travelling, doing many projects and such.

I just came back just midnight last night from another country... and now tomorrow morning at 6am leaving again to another Province.

It is not an easy thing.

My guitar lesson teacher told me that I don't need guitar lessons, that's good to hear, since I already know how to play and can self study from there. I already do that :P

So I stopped (a relief), and now just focusing on Violin.

As for TaeKwonDo, I have already missed 4 classes.... So much for that.

Reason for that is Travel. Moving city to city or country to country going places.

I mean, this doesn't occur a lot and I shouldn't be complaining too much, but when it does happen, gosh its quite hectic.

Now, something else that I dislike is when teachers, um, well... lets not go there.

Don't get me wrong, my teachers are fantastic. But I'm going to zero in on one of them.

I've been trying to email said teacher, but well, no reply... its a bit irritating. Oh well. I still better get the credit for that class. Even though said teacher hardly acknowledges my existence. Bummer there.

Now initially, I was speaking of that creative project.

I was just reading tons of information previous, and yikers. Tons of things to incorporate. Truthfully, I'd rather have a test or something. -.-"

Oh and another thing, I worked 6hrs on this one project, and I got a 97% on it........

I'm sorry but I think I should've gotten 100%. Just saying.

It's not that I have a problem with getting a 97%, its a good grade really, but still...

I know, its tough for me to ask for help. Not for the reasons that you think though.

Multiple reasons. It might be because I'm either stupid... or very stupid.

I do ask for help, but I don't want to get annoying. It sucks.

I ask help to my friends, and remind them 3 times, but they forget, and I just would hate to ask them again because I feel like I'm being a nuisance or burdening them with something. Even though it is crucial that I receive that particular help.

I'm shy okay?

So I pretty much just cope with it and spend 5hrs figuring it out.

(Usually I'm the helper, people go to help to, not the helpee).

Plus, I'm observant. No one likes to talk about school, AFTER school. They want to just relax, etc. Whatever. I'll deal.

I know. Easy subjects. Math. English. Bible.

Very easy, should be a complete breeze.

Other's thoughts: I don't know why you are having trouble with these subjects, so easy.

Me: Yeah, well try to see things at my perspective.

I'm trying to deal with this all by myself. It is hard enough. I believe in myself, so don't worry kids.

Do you see? *sigh*

Oh well, blogging calms me down and removes most of the stress.

I'm sure y'all reading this are tired of me being negative if that's what your thinking.

I'm only a girl, let me be! It's not often I get to express my thoughts freely. I'm really more of a thinker than a talker.

Yeah, I know.

On the outside, I may seem like a happy-go-lucky kind of girl. A carefree one, confident, funny, weird, talkative and loud.

But meh. I don't know anymore.

Yes, that is me but trust me, I've been through many things adults have been through.

You dont even know.

Oh haha, here's to lighten up the mood :)

Today, one of my friends, LOL.

Asked me advice on DATING.

lolololol.

Oh and if you're wondering who I'm talking about, I won't tell you.

I keep my client's identity confidential.... xD

You see, I'm kind of the person everybody goes to, since I'm dependent and all, always pushing through and being there for them, etc. Plus they think I have wisdom.

Anyways, back to my story, (P.S. what goes on in this blog stays in this blog, so don't go around telling this story or anything, no rumors please), I guess said person knew I was wise-ish. So said person asked me some advice.

I was laughing to myself actually because haha first of all-- I'm Single :P

and second of all, yeah, that's it. I'm Single.

Haha :) And person is asking me for advice! LOL. well I gave it the best I could, even with little information on the subject, and I think I had helped :)

Yay! LOL.

Yeah, well that's it. Did you make it here? Till the end?

If you did, then good job :) Thanks for reading!

Contact me for a free slurpee or something :)