My dreams lately have been so realistic, it feels like I am actually in them and living them.
But this time, same as the one prior to that, which would make it the second time, that I dreamt about you.
It's normal to dream about other people right?
Last night's dream was very vivid. I dreamt about all my friends, me at school and all of us went on a field trip. It was a very fun field trip, though right now I don't remember all the details like when I woke up.
But what stood out the most to me, is why was I spending time with you?
It was weird. It flashes through my mind from the dream how we sat down just laughing and talking and having a good time.
You and I were telling jokes and teasing each other. It was happy.
Blue skies.
Everybody was just hanging out and you and I sat on the pavement just sharing thoughts and stories like we always do. Just like good ol' friends.
It annoys me how I woke up with a smile to that one. Even though I felt kind of sore.
After breakfast today I walked around outside of the house just thinking.
Re-thinking about my dream and how we just hung out. Why was I trying to re-live it?
Oh yeah, because the fact that we're friends only exists in my dreams.
That sentence sounded less lame in my mind.
That sentence sounded less lame in my mind.
It's weird, I never used to think about this before. Well obviously I have in past times, but not lately. Why am I thinking about it now?
I tend to over analyze things so I think back and wonder why.
Is it because I started listening songs of Taylor Swift again?
Is it because I am listening to Vanilla Twilight constantly?
Is it because I am listening to Vanilla Twilight constantly?
Maybe it's because I'm playing the piano with my eyes closed. That's what makes it more passionate.
But I never think of you when I do those things.
I'm guessing those little actions trigger something in my brain, the past memories that made me happy, associating with the action and song. Yeah. Maybe its that.
They come up in my dreams.
"Oh darling I wish you were here."
Those lyrics from Vanilla Twilight echo in my mind. I like the tune, it's very catchy :)
That's why I like it.
You know that I do still pray for you. I still care about you even though I know that I hardly ever cross your mind.
These are the thoughts and things I'm afraid to even share with anyone and talk about.
Usually I'm the one listening. I'm shy.
In my eyes I have told you that I still--
So where are you now? I hope that you are alright.
This is painful you know. But I still laugh it off. Haha. ^.^
Naw, it's alright.
I like Owl City.
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